Faith, Journal Entries

A different kind of broken heart…

I have been stuck on this boy for like…years. Not like pining for him, more just never really moving on–always wondering if there is something still there. Going back and forth about it, kind of knowing it’s not right but then questioning again and again if things have changed. I have never really called myself broken-hearted about it except maybe after the first, real breakup with this boy. So whenever I read scriptures about being broken-hearted, I sort of pass over them defiantly like: “Oh, that doesn’t really apply to me.”

Well, the meaning of the word “broken-hearted” changed for me today. I’ve always read it in the pop culture-y context of being emotionally destroyed by some sort of love or loss. As I was reading my devotional this morning on Isaiah, it struck me that we are all brokenhearted in the sense that our hearts are drawn to things other than our Heavenly Father; our hearts aren’t beating properly. Rather than being like a clock that has been knocked off a shelf and smashed into unrecognizable bits, we are like a clock that is telling the wrong time, leading ourselves and others astray. We’ve got our clocks set to things like worldly success or boys we know aren’t right for us. We’re telling the wrong time and we may be convinced we’re not broken at all.

“The Spirit of the Lord God is on Me, because the Lord has anointed Me to bring good news to the poor. He has sent Me to heal the brokenhearted, to proclaim liberty to the captives and freedom to the prisoners…” – Isaiah 61:1, emphasis mine

There is something so inclusive about this verse. Maybe it was just the way God was speaking to me this morning, but I felt like He was saying, “Jesus came to heal YOU TOO!” This healing is for everyone. Not just those of us who feel broken on the ground. We are all telling the wrong time, setting our hearts on things other than Him. But our Heavenly Father sent Jesus to reset our hearts and get us ticking in sync with Him.

And I know, sometimes our hearts really are destroyed by something someone has done or said. There’s room for that kind of broken-hearted here, too. But I don’t want to miss this new view on broken-heartedness. I want to own my identity as broken-hearted so that I can fully accept His healing.

Authentically,

Alex

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